I said my name out loud and it was bitter sweet. I ended the phone call and sat in my car trying to identify my feelings. This name belongs to me. How do I feel when I say my name? I could be sitting in a waiting room when an attendant calls my name and think nothing of it. There is no reaction. But, that day when I had to identify myself to the receiver, a different vibe came over me. Honestly, I didn’t care for it. I felt something land in the pit of my stomach. Disassociation. The longer I sat there thinking, the better it got.
I accepted that this name has many facets to it. The good, bad, ugly, beauty, happy, and sad. The important parts are what I do with all these facets to build a better Dawn. Reinventing myself crept into my mind. Do something different, a lot of things different. This takes determination and sacrifice. The next time I say my name aloud it will bounce off some really terrific vibes. Until that time, I will continue to say my name. I recommend saying your name out loud and writing down what comes to mind. Soul searching enhances awareness. The next generation will need it.